good night lortress of flies love you all mwah
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Feels like a wheelâŚ
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bulgaria is in 2nd place in the world of average amount of cigarettes consumed per person - 2822 anually
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USA is at 51st place at 1028
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hello cat collar wearing emo femboy~ 
(in case youâre reading this)
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um
iâm really sorry, person wearing a collar
this guy is a known serial killer, please donât engage with his existence under any circumstance
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Meow meow meow meow meow ^_^
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When I was⌠thirteen or so, we had discussion question assignment in English class where we were supposed to talk about who our idol/person we looked up to most was. I ended up saying it was against my personal moral philosophy to have idols, mostly because I couldnât think of anybody and didnât want to do the assignment, but that may have been downstream of it being true.
My teacher said âoh, like a never meet your heroes situation, they might not be as good as you thinkâ, and I was frustrated, because I knew that wasnât what I was saying, but I couldnât express the distinction at the time with the vocabulary and level of thought I had put in.
The distinction is more⌠even if a perfect person exists, no flaws, role model in every day, I would not want to aspire to be them or set my standards by them. I donât want to derive motivation from other people. I donât want to let their paths and desires mould who I am. Iâm my own person and I wouldnât prefer to be anybody else. Having âan idolâ feels too close to wishing I werenât myself
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Obviously this isnât what people literally mean referring to an idol, but itâs still, like, a piece of it is in the core concept.
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Whatâs achievable and worked for them is unlikely to be the same for me! Their standards are not mine their desires are not mine I will never strive to be a person I am not. I will strive for things. Solid benchmarks rather than floating buoys. Other people are so unpredictable. Give them as little power as possible
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Tomorrow remind me to talk about how itâs always some manner of sick power play with me
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an idol isnt necessarily someone you wanna be
its just who you âhave a feeling of respect and approvalâ towards
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âŚyou can tell i looked that up just to make sure
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itt: a turing machine turing testing another turing machine~
When you ask somebody, especially a 13 year old, who their idol is, they will generally pick somebody who shares demographic similarities to them in some way and/or who is doing what they aspire to do. I believe some level of aspiring to be them was in the phrasing of the question itself.
Additionally having particular feelings of respect and admiration for a single person to be names basically feels the same way of incongruent with how I think. I donât want to pay anybody special respect
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Respect and admiration implies holding their opinion as more valuable than othersâ, or seeing their achievements as greater than othersâ. The former especilaly I hate doing