And I felt super similarly about a lot of mental illnesses and illnesses in general which is something Iāve been trying to uproot. Problems wre very real but theyāre not discrete objects and terms for them are descriptions of clustered symptoms not necessarily of a single thing. Like I didnāt think I could have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome despite being chronically fatigued becauseā¦ āidk thatās a Syndrome they have to Test you for right?ā But it isnāt, itās just a descriptor of clustered symptoms with VERY VARIABLE CAUSES. Not every medical problem is like a bacterial infection you canāt always class the Thing It Is
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I probably did click on the reply (I usually do..) and then misread it 
So whenever I see like a medical Object with fuzzy boundaries and no clear cause thatās super cemented in like culture. Like The Photographic Memory. I tend to question that these days. Thereās much to question
Itās important to me itās something I care about a lot. Because I always ignored all those symptoms as a kid because I thought Iād just know if I had āinsomniaā or āchronic fatigueā or whatever. But theyāre super vague things! Obviously thereās plenty of Specific medical ailments out there, many many of them, but not all of them. Canāt paint them all with the same brush
May tangent now over. How come people call my monologues nbowesque this is how my nature isā¦
nyaaaaaaaaaaa I can see the resemblance, now that you mention it
was the āMay help anonymousā thread title Blue's Cluesād because it could be seen somewhere
AAAAAAAAAA I forgot it would happen this time
non photographic memoryā¦
TRUE
Nyaaaaaaa
Nyaaaa
This gouda is better than I remembered I think I was just expecting traitor joeās but it isnāt that
Iām so jealous of people who can learn things by being guided through them. Iām watching cookie thread conversation right now and Iābe realised Iāve essentially never been able to properly engage with somebody trying to teach me something
Iām too stubborn and all my embarrassment circuits turn on too fast and I just nod through any explanation so I can go google all my questions. Like Iāve tried being the kind of guy who asks questions in class to make professors like me more but I genuinely donāt have the ability my brain doesnāt generate the questions
nyaaaaa Iām the opposite
I used to ask too many questions and the professors would have to be like āok Zug you canāt ask this many questions it takes too much timeā
It either tries to generate an explanation or saves it to a mental space to look up later and I canāt access it to fucking ask the question. Sometimes I get one but Iām always like āwell this is so natural a question that surely the professor is about to explain it soonā
With our powers combined we can be normal
Iāve never been to office hours ever. Most lectures I canāt even learn from. I need text and I need google to answer my follow-up questions