But… no.
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a side note is that i cannot put this much effort forward in trying to increase goods chance of winning by a slight margin, or otherwise, trying to increase evils by a slight margin, in a game after this
i mentioned something about my eyes fading and it feels really weird
i always look empty and dull but i feel tired, i’m doing nothing but sleeping or constantly worrying about whats happening, etc.
no healthy human should spend 2500 (probably my postcount by endgame, to be honest), on trying this hard for something meaning little to nothing, even in the grand scheme of the game
so i am absolutely not doing this again, and if i try to im afraid i have to sub out then
Regardless of my alignment, you can see what has happened
i’ve mentioned quitting entirely but im still mostly undecided, still
im too committed and it feels like nobody else is, when i’m willing to risk a ton of my time and energy for every game, and others just don’t do anything, don’t read, don’t attempt to play even minorly, and i’m entirely alone in the site, and outside the community
eh
this sucks
i’ve been doing nothing but faking overconfidence and personality for 2200 posts and 35~ hours, likely more
this is a really long way to say i hate botf
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All I can say is that… I’m sorry dude. You’ve tried so hard here, I’ve tried to interact with too and just, I do think that you’ve been putting too much of yourself into this. I appreciate your effort and you’ve genuinely been trying a lot and I can respect it
I think one of the important things about BotF is to put your own health first, mental health especially since I think that’s tested a lot here. Don’t keep pushing yourself like this again, alright? And just talk about it before it gets this way next time. It’s not healthy and I want better for you and for others too.
I just want everyone to be happy and having fun and this game… it feels like people haven’t and I just feel bad for it. Not that I’ve caused it of course but just, I’ve gotten to know yall and I enjoy playing with you. Just… be you. Don’t fake it, relax.
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i agree you need to care less
i mean i would probably care more if i was in the game from the start and this was 2020 arctic
hell i would have gone down kicking and screaming refusing to get MLed
but sometimes it’s just not worth it lol
especially botc tbh
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the best part about botc is that its quick, and easy
botf makes you sit here for 72 hours and think about everything
over and over
with half the people not doing the thinking
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Next time I think just… try not to put so much of yourself into it that you lose yourself, alright?
I personally enjoy BotC and I do like BotF since well, it’s forum BotC.
But putting that much into it and ending up hurt… it’s not worth that
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if i want to play botc i should probably just
find an actual botc server
instead of playing the Objectively Worse Version
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and yeah i wish people would put more effort in but i don’t think comparing people’s contributions to your own is exactly the best way of proving that point given you’ve been trying too hard
people just play the game for different reasons and levels of motivation/interest
for instance who knows why eliza still joins every forum game despite being MLed after doing nothing
addiction? an awareness of the fact she can quite comfortably play at such a standard within the rules of the site
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yeah i am using botc and botf interchangeably but really they aren’t, obviously botc would be less mind numbing due to the phase lengths
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and
everything works better in the actual game format it was designed in
i feel if people played at
a quarter of what you did this game
we’d all be in a much better position
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I think there’s a lot to learn here, but hey, the game’s almost over so how about we all just chill for now.
We can take a break if yall want to and come back when voting starts.
If you want to talk in the meanwhile, of course that’s fine too.
But still just take your time and look after yourselves.
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meh
likewise
thanks for sticking around and everything
i’d prefer someone who disagrees to me then feeling like im trying to discuss basic mathematics with pigeons
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And I’m saying this not as Good, not as Evil.
But just as a player who wants to make friends and uses this as one of my ways to socialise and test myself a bit too.
everything is nai anyway
i phrased my post specifically so its genuine as either alignment
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anyway i’ve won
or lost
i was probably thinking about something before but i forgot
eh yeah but like i said people play for different reasons. i am someone who enjoys putting a decent level of commitment into games i join because regardless of the outcome of the game i won’t get enjoyment from it unless i have an impact. even though really i think my idea of an ideal game environment would be where everyone is playing to win and trying a decent amount, the nature of the game with its phase lengths and no set time requirement for dedication to the game attracts people with limited interest or availability by virtue of the fact it can be as big or as little a commitment as you want it to be, and unless you join specifically crafted playerlists (probably not on fol) then this will be an issue in most games, to varying degrees
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i wish people would just
try, at least a bit more
i don’t expect anything remotely close to what i’ve done in any of my games but
showing up and actually making your 15 AI about the game posts would be nice
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yeah no i entirely agree with some kind of minimum level, the issue is things like min number of AI posts are hard to enforce and also the fact a player can border on this limit with roughly 15 AI posts while still being actively disengaged from the game and failing to contribute
but yeah that’s the annoying thing - a lot of the time the play of such players falls just over the minimum requirement but significantly below the threshold of what’s actually required to be a factor in the game, and due to the former being within the parameters of the rules not much can be done about it
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i don’t really have the energy to try and convince the mods of
anything
not like i have a solution, anyway
just it always feels awful to try your hardest and have people not even making a minor attempt to play, in almost every single game
and the other people who try their hardest are frustrated all the time because of everything involved with it, which leads to ate and toxicity and whatnot
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