Cookie Thread Act 2: Silksong

[otterpopd]

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[snowe]

nya

[katze]

nya

[Arctic]

@May I was listening to Every Breaking Wave by U2 and you popped into my head when I heard the lines

Baby, every dog on the street
Knows that we’re in love with defeat

[May]

nya

[Arctic]

there was also

And every gambler knows that to lose
Is what you’re really there for

[orangeandblack5]

The Gambler

[May]

Listen I sign up for mafia games to lose it’s the whole fun of it

[Arctic]

I really like this line because, fun fact, there is a similar dopamine response in the brain of a gambler when they lose compared to when they win, which I believe is what this line could be alluding to. That’s why so many gamblers don’t give up after losing a few times in a row. Similarly when you lose at something, as long as the activity is stimulating enough to the extent that it releases adrenaline and endorphins, you don’t always feel that bad after it immediately

ABBA’s song Waterloo also has the line “I feel like I win when I lose”

[Arctic]

I am a bit of a psychology nerd, had I not studied engineering at university for the sake of job prospects I would have probably done psychology. to the extent that I took the british equivalent of an extra AP in psychology during the time that would have been free periods on my timetable. It ended up not mattering since I went with engineering anyway but I seriously considered psychology and honestly if I viewed it as more of a possible career instead of just a passion/interest I would have considered studying a degree for it

i still don’t know if i made the right choice but i don’t think i’ll know until like at least 5 years from now

[Silviu200530]

Ohhhh arctic psychology

[May]

I love having lost a mafia game. I love it so much I love seeing the result posted and knowing that I didn’t win and I fucked up and I failed I love postgaming after a loss I love it so much. Being about to lose is actual torture

[May]

I mean I also enjoy being about to lose but in a different way because I also hate it

[Silviu200530]

Side note, I hope you love engineering, arctic

So you don’t burnout or something, as that field is really complex from what I’ve heard

[May]

I have sooo much ADHD and so ultimately any kind of strong stimulus is going to be way more enjoyable for me than nothing. You know the study where they left people alone in a room with an electric shock machine they said they’d pay not to get shocked by again. And they did it over and over out of boredom. Being bored is more unpleasant than almost any unpleasant thing

[May]

I say I love losing but it’s very clear from my behaviour that I actually deeply and intensely hate it. Which is the fun of it. I hate it so so very much and hating things is fun

[snowe]

i do not want to study psychology in school because i feel like its very personal to me and learning it from a prescriptive teacher would probably be not very fun for me
on the other hand i love thinking about psychology in a self-taught way, thats why i draw/write psychological horror

[Arctic]

being completely honest i’m not enjoying the degree much but i feel that’s mostly because of the way it’s been taught/organized

the course has only existed for 1 year before i started, so a lot of it isn’t properly thought out. before then they only had electronic engineering which is different to the course i’m doing - that had been around for years, but i only share a few modules with electronics

i enjoy the project/groupwork though which i feel is the main sort of thing that’s relevant in terms of actually having a job as an engineer where you’re coming up with practical solutions. this year we have to create an autonomous boat which automatically tests samples of water at various waypoints on the campus lake for stuff like turbidity/pH/whatever else we want basically. previously we designed a medical device that’s able to measure the frequency of hand tremors and (in theory) distinguish parkinson’s disease from other types of tremors. and last year we just did the micromouse competition. so i am hopeful that i’d enjoy a career as an engineer?

[Arctic]

i’m wondering if i’ve doxxed myself with this information

[Silviu200530]

Oh god, what type of engineering are you doing?

The frequency thing sounds based