I would like to clarify that the sentiment expressed in this post is purely about how I want to be perceived by the people around me. There is nothing wrong with men who want to present the way they do on the show and I respect them for that. I don’t want to be perceived that way, but people who do are 100% valid.
I didn’t realize it at the time, but this experience was likely more personalized than I believed at the time, and coming from a place of childhood semi-trauma about my family equating being gender non-conforming male with specifically that type of gender non-conforming male.
I recognize and appreciate this opportunity to clear out my bad thoughts surrounding this topic and move forward.