That one looks okay, but was thinking in the back of the hair.
My first time openly fascinating over girl fashion and abstractically designing myself into one
Iâd like clothing that almost look like a mini skirt, though Iâd like pants to go along well with them
i googled âminimalistic video game ideasâ (for development) and one person recommended âminecraftâ. idk what to say i hate children
Usually the games by popcap Iâd describe as âminimalisticâ or like overall any child-friendly games in the 2000s.
yes minecraft could not be any further from minimalistic its very complex and in-depth. the kid didnt know what minimalistic means
Yeah I wouldnât easily describe sandbox games as minimalistic.
But donât go too harsh on the kids, well okay I also donât like kids, but remember you were a silly tiny goober yourself once or twice or alot-of-times.
why what?.. why you should be yourself? because i donât think you really want to exist in this perpetual state of saying things that donât reflect how you feel just so you can make people laugh. i doubt you will ever find satisfaction in this way.
consider that itâs basically ragebaiting but instead of baiting rage youâre baiting people to just react to you in some way. reactionbaiting. idk. point is you you arenât really deriving satisfaction internally, you just get a hit of dopamine from someone giving you attention for a moment. do you not feel like the attention is meaningless if it was given to you about⌠a post that isnât really you? people self-deprecate for jokes now and again for a laugh but nobody i have met makes as much of a 9-5 job as you do
i may be projecting a lot here because i know that my satisfaction and happiness are seldom derived from external things. and iâm guilty of what you do as well to an extent, because i joke about wanting to be praised but when i think about it any meaningful praise iâve received has had an ephemeral effect on my overall satisfaction compared to⌠how i view my own performance and accomplishments. and i think this is the way most people operate - maybe iâm wrong, and if iâm wrong on this then good for you. but i imagine peopleâs default way of functioning is the same as mine in this case. i suppose itâs linked to why people say you should fix yourself before you get into a relationship, and especially while not suffering with poor mental health. because itâs hard for a partnerâs comfort, love and reassurance to have a lasting effect when you canât even love yourself, for who you are -and not a caricature
iâve basically had this conversation with you in at least 5 different forms but the overall sentiment is always the same
âmaybe just try being yourself for onceâ
âbut i donât know what that is. i derive all of my personality traits from people i interact with. i act in ways that that get me liked and conform to how other people think i should actâ
you know how someone acting in a way that would get me to like them? if they are themselves -unapologetically so. that doesnât mean you canât conform to expectations of basic courtesy and etiquette. but idk man. youâre allowed to act in way that doesnât net you the maximum social credit or fol likes. you love marissa right? sheâs a good example of this. everyone likes marissa. and sheâs unapologetically herself. i tend to find people like this more interesting. i still love you. but the times i have found myself deeply respecting and encapsulated by you are when you have had serious conversations with me. about when youâve struggled, what your aspirations are. i think t would be good to be like that more often
You know when stuffâs getting done when Arctic summons its internal gray.
i dont have the attention to read and digest most of this
i am myself. myself likes making jokes like that. its funny to me. its not any deeper than that
Tutuu just read it, keep your tik tok monkeyed brain away from your focus
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people at arcticâs age like to analyze everything. a few hours ago i had a discord friend, same as arcticâs age i think, write an essay on yaoi. about like why do girls like yaoi jokes. ppl at that age like to think a lot and i think they overcomplicate stuff
But tutuu thatâs 10x different to what Arctic is trying to say to you.
Heâs saying that the times youâre serious are the times youâre being yourself and you arenât just putting different court jester hats when you just want people to give you attention when youâre being inauthentic instead to what you actually want to be like.
if you didnât read what i said then what is the point of responding? you arenât really addressing anything i said. you donât have to, but if you donât then at least donât condescend to me. you asked me a question and i gave my honest answer
i read it
you are armchair psychoanalyzing me
i dont act this way on fol specifically. i joke like that with all my friends. its funny to me. im not unhappy about it. i dont conform to fol. i say things on fol that ppl dont like. like right now u are telling me âdo thisâ and im telling u ânoâ
this was a sarcastic why. i dont like being told what to do in a non-joking manner
I donât think Arctic is trying to order you into anything. I feel thereâs some miscommunication down the line, easy to get heated over miscommunication.
If youâre being a silly goober because you vibe with it, just like I am. Then Iâd say itâs fine.