i randomly remembered one time going out with my friends. walking in the evening / night. conversations come and go. at one point its just suddenly about hating queer people. my friend who was walking in front of me starting going off on this guy about how he looks like [redacted redacted redacted]. a singer celebrity. other friends in the back i overhear them talking about how [redacted redacted]. im redacting coz i dont wanna upset people. im not upset im jaded by most stuff. and like what was the whole point? they weren’t even talking about specific people that they know iirc. just people theyve heard about
at my second uni, bulgarian guy schoolmate starts going off once about the discord admin who was trans. neither of us knew her, her name, anything. he found a picture of her on twitter, sends it to me and goes off about how ugly and gross and [redacted redacted]. and im like wtf. she literally didnt even say anything to u, u dont know her. that was my first time talking to him in a while, and like, thats the most interesting thing he deemed to say. i was confident enough at this point to scold / reprimand a bit. i wasnt in the first case
another case. new years eve at our place. mom’s colleague invited. watching tv. guest goes off about how the singer [redacted redacted] and my dad joins in. and then another singer, and again. so much visceral hate and anger around me all the time. difficult to escape it