I meant whyyyyyy were u such a little biiiiitchhhh?
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Sorry for broken english when were you when club penguin is kil
Generally if I am tearing up I just go to the bathroom.
I did not cry this year, I promise
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You say this when you just told us about your crybaby experience
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i havenât cried in like a month which is a new record
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Why have you been sad, mister arcy
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Awwwww smol baby
Give extra hugs to mister barky, it will lighten his day
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content warning: suicide
The last time I cried was when I found out someone from school had died. I was not really âfriendsâ with this person - they were more tangentially in friend group and I wasnât close with them. They werenât at the school for very long and I never kept in touch with them. I think I saw them once after they went to a different school which was probably around like⌠6 years ago maybe
But the part that got to me was they clearly left school because they were being bullied (by people we werenât friends with) and they werenât close with like⌠anyone, really. And I did basically nothing to stop it and didnât really go out of my way to be tight with him. This was made worse by the fact our group very clearly had a social hierarchy and this guy was at the bottom because he was seen as pretty weird, so by extension people didnât really want to associate with him. So he ended up changing schools, I saw him once after that and then the next thing I knew was a friend who was still in contact with him telling me he died, and straight away I started thinking about how no one, including me, did anything to help this guy, and if anything were pushing him away. And my mom told me after talking with other kids parents that a bunch of different parties including his university wellbeing team did nothing for him either. I donât know any more details other than that he was struggling with mental health and my suspicion is that things never changed from when he was at our school
This person was not part of my life for the bigger part of a decade but I felt wracked with guilt because I didnât make an effort to be close with him at school, and I didnât keep in contact with him either. And I feel like if I or anyone else did then maybe things would have been different. His parents were some of the nicest people Iâve ever met and they had no other kids
so that was the last time i cried, about a month ago now
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I also realized that I have been making very little effort to stay in touch with people who I was closer with in school and this prompted me to reach out over easter break
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Summary
I donât know if I have room to say this and neither I know how to perfectly say here.
You couldnât have known that he was going through that stuff
It is truly absolutely heartbreaking that as youâve said nobody did anything
My headteacher had experienced first-hand these kind of stories and she was always warning us about how to treat others because of it
On this world, if you do not have friends you will start to feel lonely and something pathological can always happen here out of desperation
Though you canât always want to interact with other people (this includes the loners themselves too), I think that others just assume that if somebody is a loner that they prefer to be left in peace, but that shouldnât stop somebody from doing basic courtesy and maybe even a friendly hi.
I think people habitually donât want to interact with people that they donât fully know from instinct, itâs simply that they donât want to mess something up.
I really donât know if he really kept all this to himself, people can really hide alot of things about themselves if they try, you canât really know for certain. If he had somebody to trust completely without judgement, he would have opened up.
I am not sure if this is premeditated or a crisis-in-the-moment.
People with these sorts of things are complex and youâre definitely not a mindreader, youâre not guilty of anything, if you have known then Iâm sure you would have done something. I know it seems evident now because he was practically an outcast and bullied, but still, nobody knew in the first place.
You are really sweet Arctic
Stay strong.
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My understanding is that he didnât keep it to himself and he had counseling + âsupportâ from the university. I donât think anyone knew except his parents and these people
I know that in the bigger picture this isnât my fault, but I have a bad habit of assuming responsibility when it comes to inaction. I tend to envision lots of different outcomes in my mind thinking âif I did X differently then Y would have happened or Z wouldnât have happenedâ and itâs hard to put my mind off of it. I recognize this is not a rational response because you canât change the past, but being aware of this doesnât stop it happening
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Your mind does things from habit, the way you think or choose to think will start to happen automatically. A technique here is to stop the thought, even if it constantly happens.
And as always remember, thoughts =/= you as a person. You do not choose your thoughts, theyâre automatic.
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goog mornin :>
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Hey
HIIIIII PHOTOGRAPHER <3
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yâall I got court tmrw ;-;
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For what
my mom, shes a bum bum and wants visitation rights -___-
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Oh damn. Thatâs rough. Hope itâs get over with quickly
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yep, Iâd be surprised if I donât curse her out actually⌠but Iâll try ^p^
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