simply go deaf 
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Dont take my ears 
Too real
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i think may is the only person in the world who likes the sound of their voice
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Very possible
I kind of found the opposite. When I didnât htink about myself and my motivations for doing things Iâd just mould them into my understandings of others.
Like, for example, I hate saying âIâm sorryâ in a lot of situations. I donât dislike apologising. I donât dislike admitting fault. But âIâm sorryâ often makes me flinch? Specifically in situations where I accidentally, like, emotionally hurt or insulted somebody.
For a while, having not thought about it at all, I was always just like âoh I must dislike apologising in this scenario because I donât like being wrong, thatâs a bad trait, I have to force myself out of itâ. And then I thought about it for a while. And I actually donât dislike it for those reasons - the âadmitting to being wrongâ part is the easy one, I can say âI acted incorrectly and I apologise for itâ, I just canât say âIâm sorryâ.
And then I realised itâs because I hate the social script of performing⌠personal upset at having hurt another person? It makes me feel like Iâm making it all about me, and how bad I feel because I accidentally hurt somebody, and that makes me uncomfortable. People do it to me all the time, I try to make a gentle correction about how they talk about, like, my disability or something, and then theyâre like âoh no Iâm SO sorry I feel SO badâ and itâs like⌠that wasnât a big deal to me, you are more hurt than I was, I wish I never brought this up, and itâs awkward.
And having thought about it enabled me to, like, stop forcing myself to mask âI hate this social script because of its literal meaningâ and start. Just. Giving apologies that were more comfortable for me, that followed my âI acted incorrectly and I wonât do it againâ rather than âoh noooo I feel so baaaadâ (provided itâs not a situation where thereâs severe enough consequences for not conforming that I Gotta). Unmask. It helped.
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Yeah
That sounds like something I should do
Specifically my accent is like, less rhotic than most people Around me and when I was a kid I thought it make me sound more childish. But Iâve now realised it doesnât. I just sound less American. Thatâs fine by me
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I say âIâm sorryâ too much that itâs just habit at this point
FOR OTHER THINGS
IRL
Mostly around my parents I think?
Or in a âsorry that sounds wrongâ way
mm yeah i can totally see how it would work out like that
unfortunately for me, for a long time my brain would take self-discoveries like that and, rather than use them affirmingly, just go âhereâs how youâre going off script and what it looks like to others, now get the fuck back on scriptâ
so it was kinda a vicious cycle in the wrong direction
but with the right mindset, knowing yourself better is obviously a very good thing
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Yeah
you live near boston this is an incredibly low bar
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Is a Boston accent not distinctly less rhotic htan most Americna accents
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this fol user knows linguistics
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Yeah I donât flinch at, like, lighthearted âsorry about thatâ, âsorry Iâm lateâ, etc. In fact I abuse the word âsorryâ all the time. Even when Iâm not sorry. Because phrasing something as an apology makes poeple more receptive to it. I love criticising people by means of apology. But in specific scenarios of like, accidentally upsetting someone and doing a Serious Big Apology about it, âsorryâ often feels both like
- making it all about my own feelings in response to having upset them, rather than my incorrect behaviours which caused the other person harm, which are what matter to me, and
- confessing some kind of malicious intent? If thereâs a genuine misunderstanding, I usually feel like I have nothing to apologise for (and the other person has nothing to apologise for, we just miscommunicated), these things happen, it was mutual and nobodyâs fault. Explicitly giving a Traditional Apology where I imply that I did something wrong feels like Iâm implying that I had some kind of bad intention. Which I didnât, and I donât want people to think I did
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Yeah fair