Still a girl
well this is embarrassing
could you kindly give me an example
Just non the tomboyish girlish binary
well, for example. you may not have any exceptional talent, and you may not have the circumstances to develop such a talent (I firmly believe that aptitude for something does not increase your maximum potential, if that makes sense). but if you develop the capacity for kindness, or for surrounding yourself with people who do have such capabilities, then you can work together to do something that one person looking out for themselves and their friends and family canāt.
one person alone can cook for their friends and family whenever theyāre in need. a group of people can work together to create kitchens for the homeless, and so on
some people are untrustworthy, true. but so many more people are. for someone like me, who struggles to fully understand the emotions and minds of others, even though Iāve gotten pretty good at guessing, it gives me hope to know that, like. I canāt trust everyone by default, but Iāve no need to mistrust everyone by default either
oh so what i just said sans the closest part
i was thinking you meant a small action that could influence millions of people which confused me
oh, good grief, no. the world is rarely changed by such actions.
i just woke up in my defense and iām sick
sorry
āinspiring the people to change for the better using artā or whatever is what a fool thinks will change the world. you canāt make things better with art alone.
oh, uh, that wasnāt intended as aggressive, my apologies. youāre doing fine, and I thank you for listening to me. I donāt take being listened to and taken seriously for granted, given my circumstances.
it didnāt i meant sorry as in āsorry for assuming you meant thatā
art makes thinsg more beautiful, it can open minds and hearts, but it canāt do those things alone, yāknow? you need a receptive audience, people in circumstances where itās safe to bloom
iāve come to terms with the fact that realistically, I probably couldnāt have realised I was a woman until after I left school. it wouldnāt have been safe for me to have known the whole time the life that I was missing out on, because of those around me, and the pressures upon me. only when that pressure that shattered my heart and scarred my soul finally began to aleviate could I come to terms with myself. and of course, I did that through art.
like. even a small bit of art, like making a picrew of myself for that old game of YTTD Wazza hosted in the late days of oldFoL.
and making a femme version of myself out of curiosity and suddenly realising.
i credit them with that. silly as it was, the artwork of games that this community made was what gave me the space to experienceā¦ well, to truly experience anything at all, rather than to emptily ponder in a world that seemed to me to be a maze of dimmed passages
but crucially, it did not break the shell I was trapped in alone. I needed friendship, many pieces of artwork, many perspectives, stories, and knowledge to know what I wanted and to finally come to terms with who I am.
so, yeah, I aspire to make art that will help people realise theyāre trans women. I donāt pretend otherwise. but thereās so, so many things that go into making someone come to terms with themselves, and to act like the artist is the highest one is folly.
and i think thatās true of many experiences, not just the trans one. any of the positive roles we play for one another in our lives are equally valuable. just do your best for yourself and others, treating everyone as equally as you can, is what Iām saying
Apparently at start of 2024 I was 121 pounds and now Iām 131 pounds
I was told I should get to 145
133*