nemesis speaking. i’m not normally the kind of guy to talk about “good conduct”, because pretty much everyone in my system knows i’m absolutely NOT good with that, or keeping my cool, or not resorting to threats of violence as casual banter when i’m mildly irritated. But at the same time, i’ve also LEARNED that. and i’ve learned what happens when i do act on that shit, and it’s not pretty.
if shit’s getting to the point where you’re actually gonna kill someone or something, you should probably back down. it’s not fucking worth it. i’ve been clawing at the problems that plague me, tooth and nail fighting trying to get better, and i know damn well that if i got put into the kind of situation and drama and STRESS that i’m seeing and hearing about in forum mafia, i’d probably genuinely snap and hurt someone.
it’s better to just. focus on trying to get better, rather than deal with more stressful shit consciously knowing it’s gonna stress you out. if there’s too much shit going on in your life, drop the extra problems you’re putting on yourself. same reason we dropped a lot of the old communities and friends we were close with, because they were causing too much stress for us to handle.
forum mafia isn’t worth your sanity and life.