Can I displine you :3c
this is true universally tbh tbh
The only reason I donāt express the former as much is because people yell at me when I do
i read sfol70
you seemed really. angry about it.
I literally have repeatedly just said I think Iām bad at mafia and Iām being executed because Iām bad at mafia and Iām banned from mafia until I figure out how to stop being upset about being bad at mafia
I was angry but it wasnāt because I blamed other people
then why were you even angry
If other people act what I perceive as unfairly and incompetently to me I donāt get angry I get really smug
I was angry at myself because I thought it was my fault
chat does anyone have sleeping tips the insomnias exploding my brain
The only thing I really got mad at people for was seeming like they were unvoting me out of pity because that just made me feel like I was even worse at the game
I cannot even sedate myself to sleep shits fucked
The rest of it was just me being really short-tempered because I was upset about being bad
I ask and I ask what Iām doing wrong and nobody ever gives me an answer people will flat-out go āoh it wasnāt your fault, that wasnāt your bad, stop being self-deprecating by asking what you did wrongā and thatās not my intention clearly it is my fault on some level because itās happened six times in a row when I used to essentially never get executed. And I am still essentially never executed in other places where I play differently
one second.
I enjoy being what I feel like is wrongly persecuted. You saw how I acted in, like, Flicker, you saw how I still think thatās the greatest & my favourite game Iāve played here. I get to be better than everyone I get to be the smartest boy in the world. When I feel like itās my fault, I get upset about it. And itās tied up in illness shit because the feeling that Iām getting worse at mafia ties in with the feeling that I am losing my mind and becoming less capable in general. So I get very short-tempered about it and snap at people. Itās not because I am upset At Them
i am not good enough to analyze why people got executed nor do i read enough
so if that happens with me sorry
Nah youāre fine Iāve never felt it happen with you
Overconfidence, perhaps?