cooooooookie thread tell me your experience of stress
like how does it feel like for you
and do you experience a physical feeling when under stress and if so what
Stress when I feel it is headache and limbs go numb and very dizzy and deep fatigue. Which is why I have gotten very good, usually, at simply not feeling it. Fuck it we ball is a very good mantra when feeling any level of stress is very disabling
This is a big part of why Iām addicted to mafia. Stress is difficult and I manage it in everyday life by simply avoiding it. But I love difficult things and I want to know them. So I put myself under this stress on purpose, instead of trying out stressing about exams which could have consequence of doing badly on exams
And to have a thing to focus on other than whatever is of potential real stress source also aids in removing that stress. I must be occupied
i love carykh that ai was so fun but people used its powers for evil
iāve noticed thereās very different feelings for me with different kinds of stress
like if iām super nervous for a thing Iām about to do (ie test/exam, serious chess game), itās super different than the stress from having a lot of work to do in a short time
Which
i only remember the like. baroque music one
I do not anymore feel stress from any of those things. I do not remember whether they were the same. Nothing anymore except the mafia games is really source of much stressā¦
I suppose I still get what I would describe as tilted at things but that is always after a bad thing happens rather than in anticipation of it. Similar to stress but usually doesnāt cause the same problemsā¦ not physical symptoms. Just the short-temperedness
interesting
but like how do you just. not feel it
personally i would really like to not feel some stress lol
And when I have too much to do in a short period of time I get snappy with the people who ask me to do things. In a way it is stress. But doesnāt register as such
Can I do anything about it? If yes, no need to worry. If no, no need to worry.
If collective demands are made of me I perceive as imposisble I will get mad at the people making individual demands, even if they are reasonable themselves, which is not rational, and which I usually describe as stress for ease. But itās different
personally the āoh no Iām about to do somethingā is not a bad feeling most of the time, although it can sometimes make me worse at doing the thing
when itās before something like a chess game (ie something that I find fun without real consequences if I fail), I usually actually enjoy it
having a ton of things to do is like. a physical tenseness but like worse and is probably related to having borderline high blood pressure lol
I also have much blindness to time and consequences. The future isnāt real to me. And so it is easy to go āI donāt care if I fail this exam, itās not real until it happensā
And I also generally do not have things in my life which are so difficult. It is freshman year of college. My classes are not so tough. I am doing fine and have the effort potential to do better if I need to. So I suppose that helps
interesting
i procrastinate too much but also like. do not have this blindness and it is very real when it has not happened yet
Most of the things that occupy my time are self inflicted and posisble to pawn off on someone else in theory. I cna replace out of mafia games, ask someone else to handle organisational responsibilities, take a dip out of moderating for a while. I do not ever do these things. But having the potential for an out always makes it easier to cope
If I focused solely on my classes I could probably have a 4.0. Maybe that would actually be wise to do. But I do not
wait so if mafia makes you stressed and stress is very disabling how do you play mafia