shoutout to the person who literally actively refused to play it with me bc i wasnt 18 even though i had already played it multiple times before genuinely the best thing anyone from that site’s ever done for me
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i know i had internet access at too young an age but i don’t remember my young internet escapades. besides accessing youtube videos from potter puppet pals and getting away with it because i was still on the potter puppet pals site. good times
it was either that or walkthroughs for flash games. i wasn’t allowed on youtube proper but i watched sooo much youtube
I never really accidentally saw anything NSFW? I was always intentionally seeking it out. Whether I should have been seeking it out when I was? Shrug. Dunno. But I certainly didn’t feel traumatised except when others tried to make me feel so.
i still hold a special place in my heart for wikimedia commons cuz my kindle paperwhite could access wikimedia commons n so I could look at like “shirtless men” on wikimedia commons when I was 10 n not feel guilty cuz I was doing research because it was wikipedia
I had a whole crisis over it when I was like 10. “Everyone says I should be traumatised forever by this stuff and I don’t really feel that way so am I just extra traumatised?” I don’t think I was, really.
my experience was opposite, i didnt have moderation / someone watching over in group social situations. usually they turned out horrible and aggressive and i lacked control over the situation. my best experiences were one on one coz then i was left at peace; wasnt messed with. i grew used to talking in group settings online if i feel comfy, id probably need to get drunk to do it irl. ive been told im really fun and cool when i get drunk, get rid of inhibitions. but at sober state i get so anxious. one on one has always felt the best for me, safest. coz i have more control over the situation
I would navigate to a normal page like “cat” and just click links until I got to the pages I wanted… because I didn’t want to get in trouble for typing it into the search bar… plausible deniability
SO REAL
this has made me so good at wikipedia races
literally u just highlight any word on kindle paperwhite and it would take u to the wikipedia page for that word and then from there u just gotta know the links to click
cat would be really easy cuz you could go straight to human → human body (booba)
Yeah. Different experiences. I was usually on some kind of place with some kind of moderation, or otherwise in a splinter group of a moderated place with friends, so there was always a set of social expectations there. Even when there were no mods, people just had a sense of “following the rules”. We were in a separate unmoderated chatbox and my friend got mad at me for saying no when he asked if he could swear. I was worried my parents would look over my shoulder.
My Kindle had a dictionary and when I was bored I’d just go to normal words and look for sexual definitions of them
lmao
Notably, he still ASKED if he could swear. Bitch you asked why are you mad that I said no
i wish i grew up in an environment where kids would be so polite they’d ask for permission before swearing from their friends
Warrior Cats site everyone was a sheltered Christian kid. And/or closeted transgender kid